Yesterday was therapy day and I got up just in time to make it there. She went through my eating plan and wasn't disappointed like I thought she would be which was nice. I asked her about the 7 day diet and she said as long as I have a balanced breakfast, lunch and tea, it's fine so I am doing that now. With added cups of tea with skimmed milk. We then talked about the "why I ate what I ate" section, where it was clear to see that I binged as soon as I got home until I left again. Blindingly obvious and I still didn't see it until she pointed it out. We talked about my mum for a while and somehow got onto the subject of my dad. I then told her all about him and cried for the rest of the session. Blah. She said I shouldn't weigh myself at all but we settled on once every three days for now.
By the time I got home, it was at least 4.30 and I had missed lunch, plus the fact that I planned to start the 7-day diet the day after so fuck it, right? I had also spent most of the appointment crying and needed to bury the feelings again. A pack of salt and vinegar snack-a-jacks, a double decker bar and a small sloppy guisseppe pizza which I bought to share with Simon who promptly fell asleep while I devoured it. Later, after also falling asleep and awakening again, we went to get the food for the morning (specific 7-day plan food) and since it wasn't quite midnight, I had a bite of quiche lorraine and a southern fried chicken wrap. Washed down with flavoured water, I fended off the purge by insisting that we went straight away to Simon's in the car (40 minutes at least).
So far today, I've been on a pamper mission. I've shaved my legs and painted my nails and dyed my roots and soon will be straightening my hair and putting all my earrings back in. I've been watching Starship Troopers, Jekyll and Jonathan Creek... oh and the finale of Buffy. Tomorrow is the raincheck for the shopping trip and I want to look my best for the pictures. Even though Nick has deleted me so who am I showing how good I look? No pictures of Robin's hair yet but she said in a comment it's really short now. Giggle.
I'm thinking of dying my hair red and blue, but I might leave some of it white. Red, white and blue for the patriotic win? I'll decide tomorrow.
Quick food note:
17g of Cornflakes
3 handfuls of blackberries
150ml skimmed milk
Two handfuls baby spinach leaves
6 grapefruit segments
8 almonds
3 rashers of bacon
Sirloin steak with garlic and chilli
Can of salted carrots
Fat free rhubarb yoghurt
4 cups of tea (at a guesstimate since I don't limit)
Satisfying enough to prevent a binge and meticulous enough for my OCDed nature. Hungry though. 7lbs in as many days? We'll see.
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