Period

Yesterday:
Breakfast:
120ml pineapple juice
25g crunchy nut cornflakes
150ml of skimmed milk
Lunch:
5 pieces of sushi
2 nectarines
Cup of tea with skimmed milk
Tea:
Chicken teriyaki stir fry with rice noodles
Cup of tea with skimmed milk
Extra:
Another bowl of stir fry
More cups of tea with skimmed milk

Breakfast and lunch were alright although the sushi was a little hard to stomach. I spent a lot of time watching supersize vs super skinny where it says the skinny people eat about 1000-1300 a day. AS IF! AS IF! Serious doubt right here. I made seven portions of stir fry so I could freeze some because I always end up throwing the extra from the packets away (noodles and vegetables etc) because they come in such big packs. I spent a large part of the night calculating the calories in the diet I'm doing and it's just under a thousand a day which is fine. The day in question, however had only around 800 and since the teriyaki is only 239 per bowl, I ate the portion that wouldn't fit into my fridge and didn't feel too guilty. I also figured that I'd rather eat 239 calories of "acceptable" calories than resist and binge during the night on "unacceptable" calories. I got no sleep until about 11 a.m today after breakfast; partially because of a sharp chest pain that felt like my heart was flipping and twisting something and partially because my bowels were killing me.

Breakfast:
2 handfuls of blackberries
10 almonds
Low fat rhubarb yoghurt
Half a glass of skimmed milk
Half a cup of tea with skimmed milk

I then slept until 5 p.m and when I woke up, it was too late for lunch, too early for dinner and my uterus felt like it was being hit with a brick. Hello Mr. Viscious Period! Chocolate craving shortly followed and as did the binge.

Binge:
Jam doughnut (half of two)
Almond croissant
3 Jammy dodgers
Handful of tortilla chips
2 pieces of Burnt Sugar fudge
Mini Lindt Bunny
Spoonful of 'light' potato salad
7 oven baked onion rings
4 fish fingers
4 glasses of tropical soda

Some more cups of tea with skimmed milk

Major purge. Watched Super Slim Me and currently trying to find The Truth About Size Zero. I have become addicted to these documentaries. In comparison to the subjects in them, my weight doesn't correspond to my size (in inches) which is weird. Bloody discrepancies. Bloody period. Bloody hell.